She
She had always spent her life waiting for something: for her father to come back home from work, for the train, the bus, and the phone call that never came, the holiday, the end of the holidays, for the response from her lover that never arrived. In the dead air, she cries, in the anticipation of the god who was looking on her, would listen. She was clear as mud. Her condition was food for thought and she knew that. It does not mean that she never tried to save herself from unnecessary suffering, but now she had no option. The science says that a chemical substance, serotonin, was one of the compounds responsible for how human beings felt. A lack of serotonin lessened one’s capacity to concentrate at work, to slumber, to eat and to enjoy life’s pleasure. When the substance was completely absent, the person experienced despair, pessimism, a sense of futility and would end up dropping into permanent gloom, which would lead to eternal apathy. She read that somewhere in her mom